| Location | Manchester England |
| Age | 21 years |
| Date of Birth | 12/11/1982 |
| Date of Death | 28/08/2004 |
| Visitors | 23,201 since 07/09/2006 |
| Creator |
Richard Peter Johnson
28/08/2004
21 years
Student
Manchester England.
Richard will be dearly missed by his mum Yvonne and his stepfather Graham, he is the youngest of
five.
Brothers Michael and Mark, and sisters Amanda, Carrie.
He was loving, caring, sensitive, gentle and could be a joker .... his sense of homour was
wonderful!
Richard came into this world very permaturly at 26 weeks, he could fit into the palm of my hand.
He fought many hurdles in his young life to survive, he had been so poorly in the early days.
Why Richard took his own life remains a mystery, there are some clues, money, broke up with his
girlfriend ...... But the 'WHYS' remain.
All I do know is my heart is broken, and Richard is so missed by us.
Sometimes I believe in the afterlife, and then I don't!
I just hope there is one so we can all be together again as a family once more.
*I wish to thank each and everyone of my lovely GTS friends for looking after Richard, I have been
unable to light candles or leave any poems, due to a loss in my family and a Granddaughter being
very 'ill' and needing us to stick together as a family.
Please know you are all very much in my thoughts and prayers. *
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I look at his photos .... now three years on, and it makes me so sad to think there will be no more
to add to.
Richard IS and always will be part of our lives and for now the jigsaw is undone, we needed him to
make it complete.
A little bit of you, and a little bit of me, have switched respective places in a mystifying " we
".
When miles come between us, and our lives are drawn apart, our thoughts remain together, tugging
softly at the heart.
This lonliness without you, tells of special moments shared, and says across the miles, just how
much we've always cared.
The emptiness that comes, with just the memory of your touch, stirs a feeling from within, that
says, I miss you very much.
Goodbye's Aren't Forever
Some people think that goodbye's are forever
but goodbye's aren't forever...
it's just that sometimes their..
are just things in your life that..
just changes things forever
there will be people you meet
that will come and go
and you know..
that the ones you meet and that stay
you build memories and memories last forever
forever in your heart your precious memories will stay
don't stay in the past, look to the future theres always a new day
you'll miss your loved ones always and forever
but just remember that goodbye's aren't forever
people come and go and some leave footprints in your heart
they may be gone, you can't see or hear them but they are there
and have always been there still just like they have from the start
love them and cherish them like you always have and remember them forever
because you can agree or disagree but goodbye's aren't forever
so when I am gone remember me
like the song by Tim McCraw "Please Remember Me"
and forever in your hearts I'll be
don't be sad I'm gone, it's still forever you and me
you'll hold me close to your heart..and leave you I'll never
because goodbye's aren't forever.....
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Coping with Suicide Loss
One learns to live with the loss, the tragedy, the waste, and the gaping hole
in the fabric of one's life. There is no closure, nor would I want one. I want
to remember him all my life, vividly: his laughter, the smell of his trainers
under his bed, his moments of joy, his humility, and his integrity. Some
survivors struggle with what to tell other people. Although you should make
whatever decision feels right to you, most survivors have found it best to
simply acknowledge that their loved one died by suicide.
You may find that it helps to reach out to family and friends. Because some
people may not know what to say, you may need to take the initiative to talk
about the suicide, share your feelings, and ask for their help.
Even though it may seem difficult, maintaining contact with other people is
especially important during the stress-filled months after a loved one's
suicide.
Keep in mind that each person grieves in his or her own way. Some people visit
the cemetery weekly; others find it too painful to go at all.
Each person also grieves at his or her own pace; there is no set rhythm or
timeline for healing.
Anniversaries, birthdays, and holidays may be especially difficult, so you
might want to think about whether to continue old traditions or create some
new ones. You may also experience unexpected waves of sadness; these are a
normal part of the grieving process.
Children experience many of the feelings of adult grief, and are particularly
vulnerable to feeling abandoned and guilty. Reassure them that the death was
not their fault. Listen to their questions, and try to offer honest,
straightforward, age-appropriate answers.
Some survivors find comfort in community, religious, or spiritual activities,
including talking to a trusted member of the clergy.
Be kind to yourself. When you feel ready, begin to go on with your life.
Eventually starting to enjoy life again is not a betrayal of your loved one,
but rather a sign that you've begun to heal.
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Really gonna miss you.
Really gonna miss you
Its really gonna be different without you
Time is going to be hard and slow
For the rest of my life
Gonna be thinking about you
Yes I am
Time came when you had to go
I'll miss you my buddy
I'll miss you my friend
I promise my love for you will never end
In your finest hour I was there with you
And without you things won't be the same
But there's a higher power that we answer to
And you heard him calling your name
Really gonna miss you
Everything about you your smiling face
I know you want us all to be strong
Really gonna miss you
I know your going to that magic place
Singing you a brand new song
I'll miss you my buddy
I'll miss you my friend
I promise my love for you will never end
Really Gonna Miss You.
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This song by the Hollies was chosen by my oldest son's Michael and Mark.
It played as both they, along with my two brothers, and Richard father and step Father carried his
coffin in to the church.
The road is long
With many a winding turn
That leads us to who knows where
Who knows when
But I'm strong
Strong enough to carry him
He ain't heavy, he's my brother.
So on we go
His welfare is of my concern
No burden is he to bear
We'll get there
For I know
He would not encumber me
If I'm laden at all
I'm laden with sadness
That everyone's heart
Isn't filled with the gladness
Of love for one another.
It's a long, long road
From which there is no return
While we're on the way to there
Why not share
And the load
Doesn't weigh me down at all
He ain't heavy, he's my brother.
He's my brother
He ain't heavy, he's my brother.
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The scientist by cold play was choosen by Amanda & carrie, Richard's big sisters and was played at
his funeral.
Come up to meet you, Tell you I’m sorry, You don’t know how lovely you are
I had to find you, Tell you I need you, Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, And ask me your questions, Aww let’s go back to the start
Runnin’ in circles, [sounds like] Comin’ our tails, Heads on the science apart
Nobody said it was easy
It’s such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Aww take me back to the start
I was just guessin’, At numbers and figures, Pullin’ the puzzles apart
Questions of science, Science and progress, Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me, Come back to haunt me, Oh when I rush to the start
Runnin’ in circles, [sounds like] Chasin’ our tails, Comin’ back as we are
Nobody said it was easy
Aww It’s such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I’m goin’ back to the start
Ahhooooooooooooooooo
Ahhooooooooooooooooo
Ahhooooooooooooooooo
Ahhooooooooooooooooo
If only ..... A phone call from heaven.
Ring ring ring
Yvonne: Hello?
Richard: Mum, Its Richard!
Yvonne: Who is this ... why are you doing this to me?
Richard: Mum its me, remember you said you never wanted to talk to
me again?
Yvonne: Richard is this really you?
Richard: yes mum its me, i love you mum and am sorry for all the
pain, i
know now you never meant to say those's words...... But mum, please
listen there
was so much going on in my life that i could not see any other way
out of it!
Yvonne: I never meant to hurt you Richard, i love you with all my
heart and
soul, as i do your brothers and sisters!
Richard: i know, i knew that then ... but i could not stop any
longer, i
needed to go!
Yvonne: my life is so empty, i am not the same person WE need you
back in
our lives in body and spirit! You are so missed my sonshine so missed!
Richard: Mum i am with you all the time, more than when i was on
earth, you
think of me every hour of the day!
You did not when i was on earth!
Yvonne: Do you Forgive me?
Richard: mum there is nothing to forgive! I know you love me and i
love you
mum..... I am sorry, but my new friends need to use the phone as
well, theirs
mum and Dads need to know they are ok as i am. I love you mum and my
Dad, and
my Brothers and Sisters, and the nieces ... and billy and Ruby who
have come
since i left Earth!
Yvonne: my sonshine i love you
Richard: Mum, i love you, and will be waiting when your turn
comes..... bye
mum byeeeee
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Michael, Richard's eldest brother choose this song for Richard.
Imagine there's no Heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today
Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace
You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one
Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world
You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one
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***XXX HAPPY BIRTHDAY RICHARD XXX***
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A Birthday in Heaven
I heard you crying yesterday
And felt your heart-sent love
So I’m sending you this message
Now, from Heaven up above.
You’re wondering if I’ll celebrate
My birthday (way up here)
I know you’re missing me today
I feel your essence near.
God planned a special day for me
He told me with a wink
He’d ordered me a special cake
(It’s Angel food, I think)
Balloons will fill the streets for me
They float up through the clouds
And we have lots of friends up here
That make us laugh out loud
There is a birthday carousel
Jeweled horses ride the wind
With music playing oh so sweet…
The magic never ends
I’ve made so many friends, you see
We laugh and play and sing
We ride our bikes and play the fool
And sleep in Angel’s wings
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But we don’t blow out our candles here
Instead, they light the skies
XXX
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RICHARD XXXXXXX
♩♪♫♬..HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU ..♩♪♫♬
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---..HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR RICHARD
-----.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
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Love always elaine...xxxxxxxx
COMFORT
2 Cor. 1:3-5
Surrounded by friends
yet all alone
the one I loved
God has called home
the hugs of friends
helps ease the pain
and I know my loss
is my loved one's gain
but tears now flow
across my face
as I long for just
one more embrace
then comfort comes
and I see Christ's face
He hugs my loved one
and I feel God's grace.
unknown
Happy Birthday Richard
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Those who love you, sadly miss you,
As it dawns another year,
In our lonely hours of thinking,
Thoughts of you are ever near.
Your charming ways and smiling face,
Are a pleasure to recall,
You had a kindly word for each,
And died beloved by all.
Always a smile, instead of a frown,
Always a hand, when one was down,
Always true, thoughtful and kind,
Wonderful memories you left behind.
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Thinking of you and your family on you Birthday
.Love Ingrid xxx
ღ♥ღ To my beautiful family ჱܓ
ღ♥ღ I just want to let you know
ღ♥ღ I love and I miss you so
ღ♥ღ But I’m also having fun
ღ♥ღ I know how painful it must be
ღ♥ღ I know the hurt you feel
ღ♥ღ I know you feel you can’t go on
ღ♥ღ But I am always near
ღ♥ღ So keep these words in your heart
ღ♥ღ And keep my picture close
ღ♥ღ To remind you I LOVE YOU
ღ♥ღ And I am your Angel ჱܓ XxX
IITH NOVEMBER 2009
✿..LET US REMEMBER THEM...✿
✿ 'Please wear a poppy', the lady said
and held one forth, but I shook my head.
Then I stopped and watched as she offered them there,
And her face was old, and lined with care;
But beneath the scars the years had made
There remained a smile that refused to fade.✿
✿ A boy came wistling down the street,
Bouncing along, on care free feet
His smile was full of joy and fun,
'Lady', said he, 'May I have one?'
When she pinned it on, he turned to say,
'Why do we wear a poppy today?'✿
✿ The lady smiled in her wistful way,
and answered, 'This is Rememberance Day,
And the poppy there is the symbol for,
the gallant men who died in war,
and because they died you and I are free--
Thats why we wear a poppy, you see'.✿
✿ 'I had a boy about your size,
with golden hair and big blue eyes.
He loved to play and jump and shout,
free as a bird he would race about.
As the years went by, he learned and grew
and became a man--as you will, too.' ✿
✿ 'He was fine and strong, with a boyish smile,
but he'd seemed with us such a little while
When war broke out and he went away,
I still remember his face that day.
When he smiled at me and said'Good-bye,
I'll soon be back, mom, so please don't cry'.✿
✿ 'But the war went on and he had to stay,
and all I could do was wait and pray.
His letters told of the awful fight,
(I can see it in my dreams at night),
with the tanks and guns and cruel Barbed wire,
and the mines and bullets, the bombs and fire.'✿
✿'Till at last the war was won-
and thats why we wear a poppy son'.
The small boy turned as if to go,
Then said 'Thanks lady, I'm glad to know.
That sure did sound like an awful fight,
But your Son-- did he come back alright?'✿
✿ A tear rolled down each faded cheek;
she shook her head, but didn't speak.
I slunk away in a sort of shame,
and if you were me you'd have done the same;
For our thanks, in giving, is oft delayed,
though our freedome was bought-and thousands paid.✿
✿ And so when we see a poppy worn, let us reflect on the burden borne
By those who gave their very all
and asked to answer their country's call
That we at home in peace might live.
Then wear a poppy. Remember-- and give!✿
✿ Lest we forget......✿
Copyright ~ 2009 by Blair Leger & ilovepoetry.com
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Magic Of A Rainbow
I'll never see a rainbow
That I won't think of you;
Though days seem bleak and dreary
The sun is shining through.
A symbol of God's love fulfilled
In beauty, hope and grace;
A rainbow is a mirror
Reflecting His own face.
It arches o'er the mountains
With Heaven its domain;
Its brilliant colors wakened by
The grayness and the rain.
Now may I see the rainbows sent
To ease my broken heart,
Promising His healing love,
Shine through when teardrops start.
Miraculous, magical rainbows,
Blessing the sadness with peace;
God gently smiling and touching,
Bidding the sadness cease.
(Peggy Kociscin)
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Love Shines Through
Like a shadow in the moonlight
Like the whisper of the seas
Like the echoes of a melody
Just beyond our reach
In the shadow of our sorrow
Past the whisper of goodbye
Love shines through eternity
A heartbeat from our eye
By : Catherine Turner
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TIME WILL EASE THE HURT
by Bruce B. Wilmer
The sadness of the present days
Is locked and set in time,
And meaning to the future
Is a slow and painful climb.
But all the feelings that are now
So vivid and so real
Can't hold their fresh intensity
As time begins to heal.
No wound so deep will ever go
Entirely away;
Yet every hurt becomes
A little less from day to day.
Nothing can erase the painful
Imprints on your mind;
But there are softer memories
That time will let you find.
Though your heart won't let the sadness
Simply slide away,
The echoes will diminish
Even though the memories stay.
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Memories ?
Memories fill the empty space
Where you used to lie
Tears flood my eyes
As I see your face
Your smile
I hear your voice
The humour
I smile...
God Bless You Beautiful Angel
With me all the while
My memories
Take me straight to you
Bridge time and space
Uniting us forever
In an unbroken embrace
Have A Lovely Week My Friends.
With Love Always Linda.xxx
My long lost angel, why did you go?
There's no answer, I may never know.
Smiling so bright, like white shiny gold.
Then you were laying there still and cold.
"God, please give her back, I need her here.
I will die here without her, I fear.
There's an emptiness deep in my soul.
With her gone, I'll never be whole."
This aching pain is so much to bear.
When I wake up and you are not there.
You were with me for just a short while.
I'll never forget your sweet little smile.
You staying here wasn't meant to be.
God needed an angel and gave you wings.
You'll always have a place in my heart.
When my time comes, we won't be apart.
My world is dark, no sun and no moon.
Wait for me angel, I'll be with you soon.
Briana Hall
can’t comprehend just how sad you must feel
For the loss of someone you love.
This sorrowful time must still feel unreal
And you’re looking for strength from above.
I hope, from my heart, that your pain will decrease,
That your spirit will gain strength again,
And I pray that your faith will create inner peace
And that God will send blessings–Amen.
Till then, if you need me to lighten your load,
I’m waiting to come to your aid.
Just call on me, and I’ll walk down that road,
Until the dark times start to fall
By Karl Fuchs
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Tributes For Week Starting 9th November
FOR MONDAY
Your presence I miss,
Your memory I treasure,
Loving you always,
Forgetting you never.
FOR TUESDAY
Loving you is easy,
We do it every day,
Missing you is a heartache,
That never goes away.
FOR WEDNESDAY
No farewell words were spoken,
No time to say goodbye,
You were gone before we knew it,
And only God can tell us why.
FOR THURSDAY
Memory is a lovely lane,
Where hearts are ever true,
A lane I so often travel down,
Because it leads to you.
FOR FRIDAY
Wings Of The Angels
A gentle wind blew cross the land
Reaching out to take a hand
For on the winds the angels came
Calling out a mother's name.
Left behind, the children's tears
Loving memories of the years
Of joy and love, a life well spent
And now to God a mother's sent.
On angel's wings, a heavenly flight
The journey home, towards the light
To those who weep, a life is gone
But in God's love, 'tis but the dawn.
FOR SATURDAY
If I Had One Last Day
If I had one last day
To tell you what's inside
I'd tell you that I'm sorry
For all the times I've lied
I'd tell you that I need you
To hold my hand today
I'd tell you that I love you
I'd ask you, please, to stay
You'd look at me and smile
The way you always would
And say "I'd love to stay,
If only I really could"
Then you'd laugh the way you did
Whenever I was blue
You'd wipe my tears and whisper softly,
"Don't cry, I love you too"
If I had one last day
I'd love you from the start
I'd stop hiding how I feel
I'd say what's in my heart
If I had one last day,
I'd say my last good-bye
And that even though you are far away,
In my heart, you'll never die.
FOR SUNDAY
Cry Not My Friend
When you wake up tomorrow
And I am no where to be found
When you scream out my name
To the emptiness around
When every beat inside your heart
Is skipping and unsure
Cry not my friend for I am here,
Inside your love so pure
When the waves that used to touch our feet
Have gone back out to sea
When everything you once held dear
Was lost when you lost me
When the sun that once lit up your face
Is setting far away
Cry not my Friend for time shall pass,
But my love for you will stay
When age arrives and children play
And pain creeps up on you
When loved ones show you happiness
That your life never knew
When all of your expectations are met,
No matter what the pain
Cry not my friend, for I am waiting
To hold you once again
When beauty in your eyes turn grey
And all of the rainbow, white
When strong undying hearts
No longer feel an urge to fight
When winter snows become more pain
Than beauty in your heart
Cry not my friend, for I am here
And we will never ever part
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Thoughts Today, Memories Forever
Angela Christopher’s Very Proud Mum
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